Source: TheGuardian
Morecambe’s Kevin Ellison: ‘I’m probably one of the most hated players’
The winger on the darkness of depression, still getting pre-match nerves at the age of 40 and being wronged by the Fifa video gameFor years Kevin Ellison suffered in silence and put his depression on the back burner. It may not correlate with the terrace perception of the evergreen Morecambe winger – “I was seen as the macho man, a big, bald scouser, who’s quite mouthy” – and nor does it chime with another, self-proclaimed, tag – “I’m probably one of the most hated players in the Football League” – but that is the point the 40-year-old is at pains to make about an illness that does not discriminate. Ellison became an accomplished actor, who effectively wore a metaphorical mask into work until the dark clouds subsided.“The lowest I felt was driving up to training on the M6 and thinking to myself: ‘Would people’s lives around me be better if I just swung a right into the central reservation here?’” Ellison says, pausing for a second. “That was a very dark moment and I know my kids are going to read that in the future but that’s where I was at. Now I can control my thoughts a bit more and certain things don’t eat me up as much as they did back then. It is what it is, and if I can help somebody by speaking out then that’s brilliant.” Continue reading......read full article
