Newcastle boss Alan Pardew has hit back at former referee Graham Poll's criticism of him following his touchline bust-up with Manuel Pellegrini.
The 52-year-old found himself in the headlines for the wrong reasons last weekend after his four-letter rant at the Manchester City manager in the wake of Cheick Tiote's controversially disallowed equaliser.
Newspaper columnist Poll agreed Tiote's strike should not have been chalked off by match referee Mike Jones, but described Pardew as a "Jekyll and Hyde" character, one who can be charming away from the heat of battle but combustible during the 90 minutes.
Pardew said: "When you sit up there and you have got a cappuccino in front of you and it's a nice afternoon, you can all make wise comments.
"As we all know, when the heat of the battle is on, whether it's tennis, football, American football, we are winners.
"That's what we are paid to do and sometimes in doing that you make a bad tackle, you say the wrong thing, you make a bad judgement - it happens.
"I am on the sideline and make no bones about it, I am going to war and I want to win. Tactically, physically, mentally, I am there to win.
"I'm not there to fight anybody, but I want my team to win and want to see what I think is justice on the pitch, and when you don't see that it can affect you.
"It affected me a little bit, perhaps too much, but I am wrapped up in trying to win.
"Most weeks, I can be very, very calm on the sideline. Sometimes it just doesn't work that way."
Pardew apologised for his outburst immediately after Sunday's game and remained contrite as he conducted his pre-match press conference ahead of Saturday's Barclays Premier League trip to West Ham.
Indeed, he revealed he will punish himself for his behaviour, which earned him a warning from the Football Association rather than a charge.
He said: "I am not proud of the comment I made and I am going to punish myself. I have got a couple of ideas that I will do locally that will take up my time and money.
"There are a couple of things I can do that I think will help boys' clubs in the area and stuff like that that have been on the back-burner, so I will accelerate them and make sure I look after my local community here."
In the meantime, Pardew - who revealed that defender Mapou Yanga-Mbiwa has written to City midfielder Samir Nasri to express his regret at the injury his challenge caused - will concentrate on the task of attempting to end a run of four successive defeats, something he believes his side are more than capable of doing at Upton Park.
The manager said: "I don't think we have got a lack of confidence or we are not playing well. We gave Manchester City the best game they have had in the last 10 by a long, long way, and we need to take that into West Ham."
Hammers boss Sam Allardyce could have former Magpies striker Andy Carroll back among their armoury after his return to fitness, and Pardew knows ring rust will not be an issue.
He said: "Andy is a presence who can get his game together quite quickly, it's not based around fitness or sharpness.
"He's a big, aggressive target man and he is very good at that, and I would expect him to be as problematic on Saturday if he starts as if he had played 10 games.
"That we are wary of, but we know him very well. He's a local lad and obviously came through the ranks here, so we know everything about him and hopefully we can deal with him."
Meanwhile, Pardew has insisted Jonas Gutierrez, who sealed a loan move to Norwich this week, had done nothing wrong to prompt his exit.
Responding to comments from the Argentinian midfielder, he said: "He didn't do anything wrong here and he has been a great player for us. But he wasn't playing. He's a senior player and he was desperate to play.
"The World Cup is not far away, so it's an opportunity for him to play, no more than that."