LANDON DONOVAN is desperate to recreate his 'unbelievable' Everton experience next year - but told Evertonians his body simply wouldn't allow him to repeat last season's loan spell this January.
Donovan reluctantly told David Moyes before Christmas that he would not be able to return on loan again this season.
But the USA international insists that doesn't mean he has turned his back on the Blues for good.
'I don't know what the proper analogy is, but if you went to Disneyland when you were five years old, you're always going to want to go back,' he declared. 'I don't know in what capacity it will be, but I really, really hope that the offer still stands to go back next year and that also weighed into this decision.
'I thought to myself a lot, 'If you say no, then what's going to happen next year? Are they going to let you back?' That was hard, because I don't want to close that door, I always want the opportunity (to go back). If I don't have the opportunity . I mean I'm an Evertonian for life now.'
Donovan made 13 appearances at the start of last year, a spell that included victories over Manchester City, Manchester United and Chelsea - and David Moyes investigated the possibility of repeating the move.
But the 28-year-old admitted he turned down Everton's approach reluctantly.
Speaking via podcast to Everton fans website www.followtonians.com, he added: 'It wasn't easy for me. After the season ended, my immediate thought was that there's no way I am going to be ready (to play for Everton).